The conversation that I need

Rain in my heart

As dreams came crushing down

Hopes faded away

I’m here once again

With only You, my Lord, by my side

What else am I waiting for?

I know that a prostration would heal this

I know that a meaningful conversation with You would lift this up

Yet here I am

Crying alone.

Lord,

Can You please take my hands

Move me

Because this pain kept me immobile 

Sadness weighs me down

My shoulders heavy from this burden

Only You can heal this pain

Just like before.

Here I am 

Alone

With only You by my side

Looking at me with sympathy & compassion

As I keep falling into the same brokenness.

Ya Allah,

When will I ever realize

That at the end of the day

You are the only Constant in my life?

Others will come and go

Yet You are here

Regardless of the state of my heart

You are still here

Looking at me with such love and care

Regardless of how many times I forget You

You are still here

Waiting for me to unburden myself

In a beautiful prostration to You.

So here I go, my Lord

Standing in front of You

Waiting for the moment to bow down

And prostrate to You

Telling everything to You

Even though You’ve already known it

Because I need this conversation 

Like the air that I breathe.