Back to the cave

Back to the cave I want to be

As this old fear seeps in

Too many greetings

Too many conversations 

Too many people

And I just want to be alone.

Part of me wants to stay being nice

Another part pulling me away

Here I am, torn

As this old struggle resurfaces.

This is so familiar

The exact same fear

As the one I felt

Back when I was much younger.

Is it my introversion 

Or social anxiety?

This fatigue that I’m feeling

After being surrounded by many

My energy is drained

And I need to recharge

So back to the cave I’ll be

Staying low, quiet

As too many conversations tire me

And I need to recollect.